Life/Dating Update :P

It has really been far too long since I wrote a new blog post. So much has happened, so many thoughts in my mind and conversations I have had with myself as I work my way through this thing called life. And, of course, I always want to share them with you. Why? I don't … Continue reading Life/Dating Update 😛

Fear of Sharks :/

  Guess who woke up at 5:30 to go surfing :p after staying up all night watching shark attack videos and reading shark attack statistics in California 🤗meeee 🤓 dang I am worried I might have a bigger fear of sharks than I thought 🙄 but at the same time...what’s meant to be will be 🙂 haha and I wanna face my fears always 🙂 annnd … Continue reading Fear of Sharks :/

All of my crying videos ;)

Let’s talk about depression...completely raw and uncensored I want to talk about depression for two reasons...one, because it’s not always what it appears to be...and I LOVVVVE to remind people that as happy as I can be and as many things as I do all of the time...I still fight it every single day. And … Continue reading All of my crying videos 😉

Sit-Skiing For the 2nd Time Since My Accident :)

SitSkiing today for the second time since my accident and the first time in 8 years!!! Snowboarding was by far my favorite thing to do for fun before my accident and I have missed it every winter since!! After my mom first found out about Sit-Skiing, she bought me a lesson for the first Christmas … Continue reading Sit-Skiing For the 2nd Time Since My Accident 🙂

My Road Trip With Derek :)

I met Derek this past December when I went up to Canada for a Wheelchair Basketball Camp. Before I even really knew him, I could tell there was something special about him. Derek just stood out to me because he seemed so happy and chill and it was obvious that he just wanted to learn … Continue reading My Road Trip With Derek 🙂

September 2017-Struggling to Keep it together

Something to keep in mind...I have had depression for as long as I can remember...it has nothing to do with the fact that I am in a wheelchair. I think people too often assume that about me when the reality is that the wheelchair only made me stronger. This is what I want to share...just … Continue reading September 2017-Struggling to Keep it together

Feeling in my feet after surgery

...The pain has not been bad at all lately 🙂 Someone asked me today how it can hurt if I can't feel my feet and so I figured I would explain it on here. I can feel pressure on my feet and my nerves can feel like they are on fire at times. I don't … Continue reading Feeling in my feet after surgery

Everything is a blessing in disguise (korny and mooshy…but that’s just me)

Everything is a blessing in disguise. Everything. I know that can be hard to hear for some, and you may want to not even begin to think that way. It may even make you angry to hear someone say that. But if you think about it...is that really how you want to live? If you … Continue reading Everything is a blessing in disguise (korny and mooshy…but that’s just me)

So….I had a seizure…and in the morning I am having an ankle surgery

When I think about the fact that, last Thursday, I had a seizure...it blows my mind. It doesn't even seem real. I truly never thought that would happen to me...but no one ever does. Despite the fact that I feel perfectly fine and I don't really understand what all of it means, I still can't … Continue reading So….I had a seizure…and in the morning I am having an ankle surgery

I don’t even know what to name this…it is all over the place…

I have been having a lot of anxiety lately. And it sucks. I have been feeling really overwhelmed with myself and all of the things I want to do in my life. I feel like the things I want to do are so big (big to me) that if I really want to do them … Continue reading I don’t even know what to name this…it is all over the place…

5 AM Soccer dream/nightmare

Friday, February 17, 2017 5AM It is 5 Am...and I have to get up in about an hour to get ready to go substitute teach a Kindergarten class. I went to sleep around 1 or 2 am because last night I decided to write a bit in my blog, and then, of course turned the … Continue reading 5 AM Soccer dream/nightmare

Something I started writing a few months ago and never finished because there are too many things I want to say at once.

December, 2016 These past few months have been extremely hard for me. After the Paralympics...I have really struggled. I had just spent the last 7 years of my life working towards this one goal of making it to the Paralympics. And I reached it. And now it's over. For seven years that was my life. … Continue reading Something I started writing a few months ago and never finished because there are too many things I want to say at once.

My First Blog Post on Here

July 25th, 2016 I have depression…I will probably always have depression. But I am also a very positive, outgoing and happy person. Sometimes I feel like a prisoner in my own body…I find myself thinking about how unfair it is that I have to suffer in so much pain…when the depression hits me…I feel like … Continue reading My First Blog Post on Here

The many blessings of my new chair

November 20th, 2015 We beat Alabama this morning, 50-44 🙂 ...and lost our second game, 69-44 to the Lady Milwaukee Bucks team. I didn't exactly play all that well...but tomorrow is a new day. We have two more games and I have two more opportunities to play better. But playing bad was all mental...because my … Continue reading The many blessings of my new chair

…I just wanted to be a little more honest and share a little more about my life…

August 26, 2014  I am just making this short and sweet For as long as I can remember I have had pretty bad depression...that only seemed to get worse as more things continued to hurt me in my life I always struggled to believe in myself and thus had a hard time playing the sports … Continue reading …I just wanted to be a little more honest and share a little more about my life…

Understanding their misunderstandings ;)

June 29th, 2014 Soooo as my teammate and I were rushing off the plane and pushing our basketball chairs as fast as we could trying to catch an earlier bus back to campus this older guy stops walking, and after staring at me for a bit with this Debbie-downer kind of look on his face, … Continue reading Understanding their misunderstandings 😉

The only person you have in this world is yourself

May 25th, 2014 The only person that you have in this world is yourself. You have to be able to pick yourself up off the ground even when you feel like there is no way you could ever lift yourself up.  You just have to hold your head up...remind yourself who you are...who you want … Continue reading The only person you have in this world is yourself

Just a Random Writing

January 1, 2014 I’m staying at Chelsea’s on her couch tonight….I have decided to start writing…I am just going to write…even if it doesn’t make any sense or even if it is meaningless. I am just going to write to help myself continue to work through my problems. I was told that writing can be … Continue reading Just a Random Writing

One of my favorite memories

December 30th, 2013 The Christmas Party with Kirsten. Today we had our annual Christmas party for kids with disabilities and their families…we each got to choose a kid to buy a present for and I chose to buy one for a girl named Kirsten. I chose her because on her wish list it said that … Continue reading One of my favorite memories

My wheelchair is not what is holding me back

October 9th, 2012 Sometimes I get really confused. I think that maybe I am not doing enough. I wonder where I am going to be in the next five years. Am I holding back? I don't really go out that much. I don't talk on the phone that much. I don't really know what I … Continue reading My wheelchair is not what is holding me back

Really opening up…and showing my dorky/young/confused self

May 12th, 2012 Plane ride home for the summer So many things have changed in the last year of my life…not to mention the last three years. Things are getting so much better. But I can’t stop. And the struggles will never end. But the challenge is good. I just need to never stop striving … Continue reading Really opening up…and showing my dorky/young/confused self

No idea what I am saying…

Monday, February 27th, 2012 3:28pm WOW life is weird. I think that things are really starting to come together. I am feeling more alive everyday.   The wheelchair almost seems irrelevant to me… I have began to finally question why I am so hard on myself all of the time. It really is a little … Continue reading No idea what I am saying…

Taking Anti-Depressants

January 1, 2012 5:50pm I am on my flight back to school in Illinois after winter break. I am going to try writing to hopefully help me in any way it can. I can’t help but feel completely scared out of my mind. I have no idea what I am doing and I have no … Continue reading Taking Anti-Depressants

Climbing Mountains yo

July 10, 2010 If I could somehow remove myself from my body...I would then be set free. I mean, if I could somehow ignore the hardship and block out the pain...just ignore it. And think about the amazingness of it all...and appreciate myself and my successes. More so...if I could just believe in myself. It … Continue reading Climbing Mountains yo

Some things I went through.

May 3, 2009 Current mood: blessed On July 20th of last summer, I was in a forever life changing motorcycle accident. In the accident I broke four ribs, collapsed my right lung, had a stick go through my knee and a stick go through my ankle, shredded the skin off my right shin, broke my … Continue reading Some things I went through.

Life Changing Moment

September 10th, 2008 Out of everything I went through- my life changing moment happened 2 months after the accident when I finally got to go home for one night, after the 4 weeks in the hospital, one month in the nursing home, and the night before my 3 ½ weeks of rehab back at the … Continue reading Life Changing Moment